Thing change fast enough that you can't cope with it......
I have a new perspective on thing and I do not very well like what I found, though it seriously reflect that I am right, I would not want to act that way.
Tears swelled up my eyes but I refused to surrender to the pleasing voice on my mind to cry it out.....
I will get strong till I won't see the vulnerable me again...
I hate myself for the vulnerabilities and situation I am in.......
Constantly hoping for miracles but it did not appear...
It dismiss my last hope entirely till I am like a wounded soldier, feeling super tired and dread that I would seriously wanna have a long good sleep......
Saturday, April 2, 2011; 2:25 AM
I am so happy that I get into psychology for NUS. It had been what I wished for during this past few weeks. NTU enrollment form should be coming soon, which is electrical and electronics engineering. I am seriously troubled by which to accept.
I am not at all pleased with my current situation. I wanted to accept the offer but something pull me back which is financial. I am quite uncertain about what I am going to face and thus having a lot of fear. Although I know that never let the fear strikes you from playing the game, I am still afraid to do what I want to do. I know financial is a big issue here but I just can't do anything except to pray for miracle to happen.
Sometime I do grumble why I am not born with a silver spoon and why I just can't live a life that is great and fill with lots of fun. Things isn't fair as if I think is fair, some will think is unfair. I really scared my lives in university will be the same as what my lives is in secondary school and polytechnic. I just wish I make a correct and great choice and make things go to the perfect path that I wish I would.
Passion for psychology or stable job for engineering??? Which is which, I don't know. May someone give me decent advice and make me see the light.....
Please GOD.
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I am 18 this year.
Waiting for Santa- Presents to me on 1906!
Study in Singapore Polytechnic currently
I Like:
♥Family
♥Novel
♥Anime
♥Drama
♥Cartoon
♥Tibits
♥Dreaming
I Dislike:
♥Thunder
♥Darkness
♥The real world
♥Fake people
♥Emoness
♥Betrayers
♥Unfairness
♥Examination
♥Evil
Dear Santa, get these for me!
Cravings
Explore the World Happiness! New Shoes Confidence Score well Good GPA Fame, Beauty, Fortune Cheerful Wisdom Learning Japanese Meeting my "HIM" To be my real self Have all dream coming true
Princess
I want to be
Cinderella
Crystal shoes are laughing,
Birds are chipping.
Who is the one and only girl???
Answer reveals when ones wear the crystal shoes.
My heartbeat is pumping hardly yet the charming prince never notice.
Pray to the shooting star,
Please remember me!!
Till blood flow profusely out from the crystal shoes...
Enduring all pain hoping to touch you
Cutting my feet just to meet you.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Believing in miracles will happen.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Prepare for the ball and shine for you.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Using lie just to win your precious smile.
I am staring at you always.
I am spining and dancing non-stop. Hoping you will remember the best of me
Until the clock strike 12 midnight
I am running against time
When it strike 12 midnight,
Magic disappears,how cruel the fact is.
Without the crystal shoes,
I am nothing.
Explore the World
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February 2008
