I don't know to smile or laugh.... Realising the fact that me being so stupid and naive, believing everything that is true but then it turn out to be what i thought it would be. Becuase of you and BEcause I am a girl is the song i liked the most as this best describe what i trying to say. I don't know what to say about how i am feleing is just that feeling of stupid just occupied me. I mean is sort of feeling betray and mixed feeling ba..... i just can'tfind a prefect word to describe what i am feeling.... Although know that blogging here is so lonely as ...... I just losr confidence in everything as from the firstmoment is it already not prefect but hen it just turn out to be what i thought and then turn in to somehting that i hate it a lot.... Hate these and think it is so stupid and so what..... AM i abnormal ?? I think i am seriously, feeling like that make me feel so strange but then think that i accept it while afraid.... BUt hten i will not run away... Me was not me, you was not you. thing that are meant to be change to somehting i don't know Normal thing turn out to be abnormal... LIves turn up to down...butt hen nvm feel free anyway
TOday reformat my laptop again lost all the data... tmr i also need to go as still not working well... I am not tryign to be like that to anyone but thne i feel so sad those days so ij ust cant help being like that . Inot usre la just feel so mixed feelign and strange strange de...... FEel stress and was like so emo la...... HAIz HAIz IT like so strange for everything.... NOt in the world and then the world is with u.... Then not belonging to it but then was in ti for wat sake lo.... I don know how to say la.... think very odd and emo and sad lo
Tuesday, August 12, 2008; 2:15 PM
Yesterday i watched money not enough 2..... I think it is pretty touching..... I mean how their sons can treat their mother like that... Mother is very noble, she give everything for their son or daughter asking for nothing in return, then what she get back was ill treatment from her children..... It was such a sad scene lo.... Putting her in the toilet eating, sleeping and finding her irritating etc..... Then they send her to old folk home then she was so sick that she landed in hospital..... And then when in hospital think she waste money wan to burn incense paper to send her away was like so what lo.... Then the hospital only left only one packet of o minus blood. Decision between her children daughter and the mother???? Who to choose.....??? They fight for it lo then the mother her it then take the oxygen mask on her away then die.... Her mother gave up her lives for her grandchildren...I was like crying like hell in the movie theater lo...... I feel it worth to see and then feel like watching it again lo.... Mother means what to us, i started reflecting.... As we as children always taken them for granted and think they are very naggy etc...But really it so sad lo... People will get old and when get old sure got sickness wan lo....then because of this you think they annoying want to send them to old folk home...are they human or not? Being the side in poor is not worse than being relationship lonely or poor. Without money u cannot do a lot of thing or let people look down on you but then warm is always there for u with family acc u toward it..... Without relationship, no matter how rich your u r forever not happy....the feeling of empty and loneliness..... I understand it truly how it feels and how we take thing really for granted so i cry very badly and flashback on many things lo....
Haiz so many exam coming and i still have not started doing anything at all yet...
All i do was like watching anime, tv, and cartoon. How how?????
Sure fail for sure lo...as my practical test basically do not that well as make lot of careless mistakes.....
I forogt what the lecturer said at the beginnign lo so many thign to catch up but then i never do anything..
Depressed those days lo....maybe due to stress ba...with forthcoming exam and lots of project.
Yesterday i went for public concert haha see lot of classmates too...feel much better than in poly..as in poly basically think i quite anti social lo......i hate the fact that i am in this course and then i hate of my stubbron which tell me to hand on to it seriously.....
Feel useless.... No one to lighten the dark narrow road but it can worse....
Seeign people doing well which make me feel depressed....
WHy poly lives impact me so much that i cannot do well.
I slack like what lo...what i do was like using computer all days and nothing else...get dishearted with everything lo....sure fail like wat this comign test nad i don expect to pass within three years lo...think i will need to repeat module or wat.....
Thing is n ot going to be smooth and the rest of the journey will not be too lo...
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I am 18 this year.
Waiting for Santa- Presents to me on 1906!
Study in Singapore Polytechnic currently
I Like:
♥Family
♥Novel
♥Anime
♥Drama
♥Cartoon
♥Tibits
♥Dreaming
I Dislike:
♥Thunder
♥Darkness
♥The real world
♥Fake people
♥Emoness
♥Betrayers
♥Unfairness
♥Examination
♥Evil
Dear Santa, get these for me!
Cravings
Explore the World Happiness! New Shoes Confidence Score well Good GPA Fame, Beauty, Fortune Cheerful Wisdom Learning Japanese Meeting my "HIM" To be my real self Have all dream coming true
Princess
I want to be
Cinderella
Crystal shoes are laughing,
Birds are chipping.
Who is the one and only girl???
Answer reveals when ones wear the crystal shoes.
My heartbeat is pumping hardly yet the charming prince never notice.
Pray to the shooting star,
Please remember me!!
Till blood flow profusely out from the crystal shoes...
Enduring all pain hoping to touch you
Cutting my feet just to meet you.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Believing in miracles will happen.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Prepare for the ball and shine for you.
I am Cinderella in disguise,
Using lie just to win your precious smile.
I am staring at you always.
I am spining and dancing non-stop. Hoping you will remember the best of me
Until the clock strike 12 midnight
I am running against time
When it strike 12 midnight,
Magic disappears,how cruel the fact is.
Without the crystal shoes,
I am nothing.
Explore the World
♥Darwin Blog
February 2008
