For this past few days, I have met a lot of people which i have long lost contact with.
I started to think that why lives cannot remain the same as before,
Why can't we be the same as when we meet and why can't thing stay the same as before.
I was wondering will it be great if it is the case which i think it would be.
Seeing them let me have a lot of flaskbacks which involved betray, fun.joy and setbacks.
Seeing how stupid i am and how i manage to go through it, started thinking that I realised that i have indeed changed a lot.
I don't know what personality i have changed into but then i am afraid of this change in deep.
Maybe i should not say that i don't know, in fact i should say i know the change but then i wanted to run away rom this change so i prefer the choice of i don't know.
I saw people around me changed to, whether it is because of my attitude shown to them or what matter the case, I don't like it.
I feel so sorry for myself as i already don't know who i am.
Whether i am the girl who you all make friend with it during secondary or earlier, I cannot give you the answer as i also don't know whether i am the same as before.
The society is cruel so does the fact, I don't wan to know any fact that involved in lives, It just make my lives hurts even more.
I will not shred a tears as it is too dry for any tears to be shred.
I feel so empty and so depressed whihc i don't know how to voice out or i choose not to tell;to be precise.
Bleeding in my heart and smile on my face, Whether i am really happy that no answer to it and i don't care anymore.
Not feeling anything else but painful, Not kindness but cruel , not sweet but bitter, not colourful but black and white, not beautiful but ugly, not pure but stain and prefect but corrupt.
In my lives there is not warm, no matter how hard ones try i cannot feel it as i feel the coldness in my heart.
Hate myself for being like that, hate that the lives drove me to change and i hate this change.
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